Considering I had originally signed up for the full marathon, in my manic-euphoric state, proceeding my first marathon, I think that I would be disappointed in myself for taking the easy route. I'm not disappointed, I'm still participating in the race. I'm not ecstatic, I think I'm too tired to be in that state of mind. I'm not nervous, I have run 21km before, granted not on the route that this race takes, but I have ran some of the route. I am ambivalent as to what I feel towards this race. I have had plenty of time train, but that doesn't mean that I have used that time wisely. I should have been keeping track of the runs I ran, jotting down how I felt before, after and during, written down the food I was eating to fuel me for these runs, not have been discouraged by the weather and not have been needing to nurse an injury. Considering that I have not been the perfect example of one who will excel at this race, I will be happy with just finishing. I wish I could say that I feel that during the time I was supposed to be training, I excelled in another field. I guess that would be the Chinese Medicine field, considering that is where I put most of my focus, mentally and physically. I think that maybe Glee might be the blame for some of my blah.
All I know, now that the weather is getting much much better and I have 2 months to heal my hip "injury" and work on having more energy, that I will be approaching the Berlin Marathon with a totally different attitude.
To ensure that attitude I consulted my running bible, Runner's World, and came across a very informative article, Fear No Run.
Wish me (us) luck!
Peace.
I will still be running with Ilan in mind, through the most important city, Jerusalem.
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